Monday, 29 December 2008

ambivalence

Sometimes I can't exactly tell how I feel about California. I have so many ambitions, and sometimes one located in the golden state sneaks into my thoughts. I've considered coming back to Bible college. My aunt needs a nanny. But the whole money thing is hard. I have my dream job. I don't know what I want to do much less what God wants. I also think I want to move to Lubbock. But again I have my dream job. I have a bird in my hand. Why search for the ones in the bush?

I think I'm just stir crazy. I'm very transient I think.

Maybe I'll finish these thoughts later