Sunday, 27 July 2014

Puzzled

Less than a month until school starts.

It's exciting and scary, and everything just seems so big to me but I feel empowered.

I feel empowered because although I lack a specific focus and I haven't the foggiest as to what my direct goals are, I have committed myself to a plan, and the details will fall into place. It feels like completing a puzzle without the box. I'm starting with the edges-what I do know. And everything else will work out as I keep moving forward.

So I've got two years of school left. As I have choices in classes, those will help me make a career focus. So will the people I meet. So will the volunteer opportunities. And the jobs after I graduate. That gives me time to decide on my graduate degree, where again I decide specific classes. Specific research topics. More people to meet. More volunteer opportunities. And finally, another graduation. And by then, I might just have all but the last few pieces of the puzzle called "career focus"  and a pretty good idea of what it looks like. That's why I'm not worried about having a plan. There's excitement. I know I have the pieces. I don't know what they'll look like.

But I know I've got a plan to love people.